i am such a lousy...

server. i can't even handle a few thousend listeners a day. i am so depressed. not even my mysql friend has to work, always sleeping, always overloaded. i am so depressed. why can't i just run? always, without maintenance? everyone tries to help me, always. i got tons of system engineers trying to help me. but nothing helps, i am such a lousy server. maybe i shoud start guru meditation. when i was young, it was so helpful.